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Cousinjean
Summary: A slip of the tongue creates a whole new world of problems for Spike. Picks up about 4 months after "Grave."
Spoilers: Everything through S6 is fair game, with a vague awareness of rumors about S7.
Rating: R
Disclaimer: All characters and settings belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy Productions. What happens to them is the product of my own fevered and obsessive imagination.
A/N: I know this looks like another one of those "Spike's back from Africa" fics, but it's not. This is one of those big, epic, plotty stories that has been stewing in my brain for much longer than Spike has had a soul. Although the soul added a whole new layer to the idea that made it too interesting to ignore.
Thanks to Abby, JRS, fenwic and adjrun for letting me think out loud about this story in various chats. It really helped shape the plot. Thanks to them as well as Aurelio Zen and Fiona for the betas, feedback and insights. I {heart} my beta readers.
Minions hung about in the front yard, dancing on the lawn to music blasting
through the living room windows. A few couples of various orientations were
all but shagging on the front porch. Looked like a party. Just what he so fucking
didn't need.
He shoved a beer-swilling tosser out of his path as he stormed up the front
walk.
Harmony came flying out the door and met him on the steps. "Spikey! Oh
my God, I was so worried!" She threw her arms around his neck. "Where
were you?"
"Went for a drink."
"Ew, and you smell like it!" She pulled away and put her hands on
her hips. Spike cast a glance at Willow, who leaned against the porch rail and
met him with a smirk. Harmony poked him in the chest. "Do you even care
that I was out of my mind with worry? All I could think was what if my poor
Blondie Bear wandered off somewhere and couldn't remember how to get home
before sunrise!"
He grabbed her and pulled her inside the house. "Let's not advertise
my memory loss to the others, right?"
"Sorry," she pouted, jerking her arm out of his grip, "but I
was really scared. Don't do that to me."
Spike sighed. The wounded look she gave him made him feel like a prat. "Sorry,
Pet. Didn't mean to frighten you." He looked out at the party on the
front lawn and his irritation rose anew. The incessant hip hop noise blaring
from the stereo wasn't helping. "Tell me, do all these people live
here?"
"No, just us. But they caught Mr. Giles messing with one of the traps,
and decided to celebrate."
Great. The whole world was shot to hell, Buffy's stuck in an underground
cell, so desperate to end her misery that she's willing to chew through
her own wrist, and these pillocks were having a fucking party. His irritation
boiled into anger as he spun away from Harmony and tore into the living room.
With a roar he picked up the stereo and heaved it into the giant TV screen.
He stood there, panting, relishing the satisfaction that always came with significant
property damage. His conscience had nothing to say on the matter, and in fact
felt pretty good about destroying something that belonged to this world's
Spike -- considering all evidence pointed to this world's Spike being a
right, bloody bastard.
"Spike!" Harmony's shrill, indignant voice cut through the red
haze. "What the hell are you doing?"
Ignoring her, Spike strode to the front door. The minions all stood about looking
bewildered. "Don't you people have homes?" he shouted.
From her spot against the porch rail, Willow raised an imperious eyebrow. "It's
not like they don't have a good reason to celebrate."
"Celebrate when the problem's been eliminated," he growled, and
slammed the door. He spun to face Harmony. "Where is he?"
"Who?"
"Giles, you daft bint!" She flinched at the name-calling, but he didn't
have time to feel bad about it.
"He's in the basement. Josh is guarding him."
Spike pushed past her to the basement door. He took his time going down the
stairs, putting on an air of menace, more for Josh's benefit than for Giles's.
The Watcher's back was to him. He was thoroughly tied to a support beam,
facing the opposite wall. When Spike reached the bottom of the stairs, a tall,
powerful-looking young vampire stepped away from Giles and flashed a fangy grin
at Spike. This must be Josh, then.
"Master," Josh said, his voice full of pride, "I caught the Resistance
leader."
"Did that all by yourself, did you?"
The whelp gave a modest shrug. "Well, some of the guys helped."
"Well done," Spike said absently as he moved around to have a look
at Giles. His head hung down, but Spike could see a cut on his forehead. "Hello,
Rupert."
Giles raised his head. The cut was just the beginning. One of his eyes had swollen
shut, and he had a busted lip. His good eye met Spike's. "Hello, tosser."
Funny how much that hurt. Last time Spike had seen Giles, the older man -- well,
the more mature man, at least -- had called him "Son." Of course,
they'd both been under the influence of actual amnesia and had made a tremendous
leap in logic based on their shared Britishness, but still. It had been rather
nice. Not that Spike would ever admit that to anybody.
But that had been a different Giles. This one gazed at him with utter contempt.
He'd never seen that before, least not directed at him. Supreme irritation
and disappointment, yeh, but not this unvarnished hatred. This would make things
difficult.
"Started the interrogation without me, eh?" Spike addressed Josh,
but his eyes never left Giles.
"Yeah, but I kept him conscious for you. I didn't think you'd
mind, long as I didn't kill him."
"Well you thought wrong." Spike stared hard at the boy until he looked
sufficiently cowed, then he turned back to Giles. "Rupert here's not
one to break under torture. You can inflict all the physical pain you want on
him. He'd sooner die than tell you what you need to know. I'n't
that right, Rupes?"
"Sod off."
Spike looked back at Josh. "See?" He stepped closer to Giles, put
a hand on his head to hold him still, and said in a low voice, "Remember
who it was kept you alive the last time? With Angelus?" He stared steadily
into the Watcher's eyes, willing him to get his meaning. Finally Giles
jerked out of Spike's grip and looked away.
With a nod, Spike turned back to Josh. "Best to let him sit and stew in
his own thoughts. He knows good and well it'll be better for his people
if he just tells us where they are. Better'n letting himself be used as
bait for an ambush. There's time enough for him to figure that out on his
own." He went back to the stairs. "Right, then. Time for beddy-bye.
If you're going home, best go while the getting's good."
"I'll stay here and guard the prisoner."
Bugger. Spike shrugged. "Suit yourself, mate." He went back up the
stairs, and closed the door behind him. Now what? His stomach growled again,
so he went to the fridge. It was well-stocked with an assortment of booze and
a bucket of wings -- funny, that. Before the chip he hadn't had much of
a liking for regular food. Maybe they belonged to a minion. No blood, naturally.
He hadn't really expected to find any. Not like he'd have need to
keep it bottled when he could get it fresh off the tap. With a sigh, he pulled
out a wing and tore into it. It would do nothing for his hunger, but maybe it
would have a nice placebo affect, help him keep going a bit longer. He didn't
know what he'd do for blood, but he'd have to think of something soon.
He washed the wing down with a bottle of Bass -- he wasn't quite ready
yet to experience this world completely sober -- then, not knowing what else
to do, he headed upstairs.
Harmony met him in the hall, blocking his way into the bedroom. Not that he
had any particular desire to go in there. "I hope you don't think
you're coming to bed all stinky."
"Right. 'Course not." Spike looked past her into Buffy's
room and sighed. "Just let me get some clothes and I'll go clean up."
Harmony rolled her eyes. "This is my closet," she said. "Yours
is in there." She pointed toward the master bedroom. "But you don't
wear clothes to sleep in, Silly. Just go shower and come to bed. Maybe you'll
feel better after you get some sleep." She turned and flounced into the
room.
Spike moved down the hall to the bathroom. He stood outside the door, fists
clenched and eyes closed, swallowing down the bile and fear that rose in his
throat. He couldn't go in there. Maybe he could wash up in the kitchen.
Oh, go on, you cowardly git, chided the voice in his head. No getting
out of it this time. Not like Buffy got the luxury of avoiding this room, is
it?
He hadn't thought of that before, that Buffy couldn't even take a
piss in peace without being reminded what he'd done to her. If she had
to face it, then so did he. He stepped over the threshold and flipped on the
light.
It looked different. Harmony's crap cluttered every surface, and it had
been redone in black. The shower curtain, the towels ... a large, black rug
covered the floor in front of the tub. Still, white tile peeked out around it.
He examined the wall at the opposite end, a bit surprised not to see a Spike-shaped
dent in the plaster. But it hadn't happened here. Not really.
He stepped all the way inside and closed the door. Kicking off his boots, he
took a deep breath. Didn't smell the same, either. Essence of Harmony had
replaced that of both his girls.
Spike sighed. He hated this place.
He stripped off his clothes and stepped into the tub. Suppressing a shudder
as his nightmare flashed before him in vivid detail, he turned on the shower
as hot as he could stand. The water felt cleansing, comforting. Not like cold,
suffocating water of his dream. He put his hands on the wall before him and
leaned into the spray, willing it to wash away the film of despair that walking
in this world had coated him with. It didn't work. He thought of Buffy,
battered and broken, writhing in unbearable pain on the floor of her cell. He
thought of himself, this other version of himself, holding her down and forcing
her to take him in, not just once but over and over again. He wondered how many
times it had taken before she'd given up fighting it, begging him to stop.
Pain shot through his hand and wrist and up his forearm. Startled, he stared
in wonder at his fist, clenched tight and resting against a new crack in the
tile. He forced his fingers to straighten and held his bloodied knuckles under
the water. The torn flesh stung enough to make him wince, but he gritted his
teeth and kept his hand there. The pain felt fitting. Just. Deserved.
Spike let out a laugh. He'd sworn before he got his soul that he wouldn't
beat himself up about his past, yet here he was doing it literally. Sod this.
He had work to do.
He shut off the water and shook out his hand, then got out of the tub and toweled
himself off. After grabbing his coat and boots, he went into the master bedroom.
Joyce's old room. It'd been a while since he'd thought of her.
He'd been surprised by how much it had hurt when she'd passed on,
but that had been nothing next to losing Buffy. He wondered what Joyce would
think of the way he'd treated her daughter. Probably take another axe to
him if she knew.
He shook off that line of thought and went to the closet. He grabbed one of
at least a dozen pairs of black Levi's, and after about two seconds'
worth of deliberation snatched a long-sleeved tee-shirt, and pulled them both
on. Then he simply stood there.
What now?
The glow of daylight filtered in through the heavy curtains, but it was still
too early to make his move. Besides that, he felt dead tired. No way in this
or any other hell would he go lie down in Buffy's bed with Harmony.
Joyce's, then. It still felt like a sacrilege, but it was the lesser evil.
Besides, it would just be for a little while. Couple hours at the most. Just
a spot of rest, and then he'd start making things right again for both
of Joyce's daughters.
Spike nodded, as if making a promise -- though whether to himself or to the
mother of his beloved he couldn't be sure -- then lay on the bed and closed
his eyes.
Lazy fingers played with the damp curls around his forehead. "What are
you thinking?"
He smiled. "Right now I'm thinking how you never used to ask me that
sort of thing."
She gave his locks a gentle tug. "I'm asking now."
He opened his eyes to look at her. Her hair had grown over the summer, back
past her shoulders, and it reflected what little light filtered in through the
curtains. She smiled at him, and the room brightened tenfold.
"You only ever ask when you're not really here."
Her smile faded into a thoughtful frown, and the little space between her eyebrows
crinkled up. "Maybe you should take advantage of it, then. While you still
can."
He smoothed out the crinkle with his index finger before brushing her hair out
of her face. "God, I miss you."
She trailed caresses down the arm closest to her, then intertwined her fingers
with his. "Then come home."
"I'm trying."
Her eyebrows shot up. "This is trying? Trying looks a whole lot like lying
flat on your back on my mother's bed."
"Bloke's gotta rest sometime, Love."
"Mm." She snuggled down and rested her head on his shoulder. "You
rest too long, though, and opportunity will knock on your window and pass you
by."
He squinted at her. "I think you're mixing your metaphors there, Pet."
She raised up to look at him. "Well, it's your subconscious,
Mr. ... Poet ... Guy. I'm not the one getting my metaphors mixy, am I?"
He laughed. "S'pose not." He gazed at her for a few seconds,
enjoying the sight of her as he had so many mornings over this summer and the
last. "You sure you're just part of my subconscious?"
She moved on top of him, stretching her length out along his, and stroked the
sides of his face. "Come home, and find out." She lowered her mouth
and caught his bottom lip in a languorous kiss. He closed his eyes and reached
his arms up to embrace her, to return her kiss.
His arms caught nothing but air.
Spike opened his eyes. Groggily, he sat up and rubbed a hand over his face.
Judging by the quality of light behind the curtains, it was midmorning. He'd
slept a couple of hours. It would have to be enough. He got up and found his
boots and duster, pulling them on before creeping out of the room.
Buffy's door was open. Spike poked his head in to make sure that Harmony
slept soundly before sneaking past. He made it down the stairs and into the
kitchen quietly enough, stopping to check his pockets for weapons before opening
the basement door.
He had two options. He could charge down there, cock of the walk, make up any
number of excuses -- hell, he was the Master. He didn't need an excuse.
Didn't even need a reason. Get Josh to turn his back, shove a stake in
him, and that would be that. But then he supposed that Josh didn't get
to be one of his top minions by being an idiot. The boy might put up a fight,
raise a big noise and bring Harmony running.
Or, he could sneak down, take out Josh before he even knew what hit him. Risky,
as it required no less than expert stealth. Fortunately, he was an expert,
and what's more, he'd had a lot of practice going up and down these
stairs without so much as a creak. Chalk up a point for his obsessed stalker
days.
Stealth, then.
Stake in hand, he opened the door slowly, just wide enough to fit through. With
feather-light steps he started down the stairs. The rest of the basement came
into view. Giles had slid down the post and now sat on the floor, his back still
to the stairs. Josh sat on top of the washing machine, reading a comic book.
Oh, bollocky hell. No way Spike could get to him without being seen first. So
much for the stealth approach. Then again, the boy seemed oblivious to Spike's
presence. Slipping the stake up his sleeve, he cleared his throat as he stepped
out of the shadows.
Josh looked up, startled. "Hey, Spike. I didn't hear you coming."
"No, you didn't. This what you call guarding the prisoner?" He
indicated the comic. Violent Cases. Good book. Couldn't blame the
whelp for being into it. Still, Spike had a role to play. "If I'd
been a Slayer intent on rescue you'd be dust now."
Josh threw down the book and hopped to his feet. "Sorry, Master. I ...
the prisoner fell asleep, and I needed something to keep me --"
"Wake him." Spike moved to stand near Josh, looking down at Giles.
"I've got a couple of questions for ol' Rupert here."
Josh nodded, went to do as told. As soon as his back faced Spike, the stake
went in. Giles opened his eyes and looked up at Spike through a rain of dust,
his expression a mixture of surprise and wary bewilderment.
Spike gave him the first genuine smile he'd managed since arriving in this
place. "Nice to see the other me hasn't abandoned the grand tradition
of surrounding himself with bleeding idiots." He stepped closer to examine
Giles's bonds. He was handcuffed as well as tied. Spike looked around the
room. "Need the key," he muttered.
"I believe you just dusted it."
Spike looked down at Josh's remains. "Oh. Damn." With a sigh,
he began searching for some bolt cutters.
"What are you playing at, Spike?"
He settled on garden shears. "At the moment, I'm playing at rescuing
you." He grunted as he forced the shears to close on the chain. They bit
through half the link before the blades bent. He tossed the shears aside. "Hold
still." Spike pulled on the cuffs, gritting his teeth as he put all of
his strength into it. Finally, the link gave. A moment to unknot the ropes,
and Giles was free. Spike moved back to face him. "Right, then. Let's
go." He held out a hand.
Giles stared up at him. He got to his feet without taking Spike's proferred
hand, so Spike put it in his pocket. As soon as he was up, Giles lunged at Spike,
wrapping his hands around his throat and bending him backwards over the washing
machine.
"Hey!" Spike pried Giles's hands loose and shoved him backwards.
The two of them stood there a moment, Spike rubbing his neck and Giles panting.
"None of that, all right? I'm trying to bloody rescue you,
you git!"
Giles's laugh sounded a little maniacal. It set Spike on edge. "You?
Rescue me? You're the one I need rescuing from, you daft
bastard!"
Good point. He'd have to be smart about this. Not like trust was even in
the same bloody hemisphere with this Giles, was it? He pulled the stake back
out of his pocket, considered it a minute, then flipped it and offered it to
Giles, blunt end first. "Not anymore, mate. It's the other way 'round."
Giles kept laughing. "Oh, I see. Is this your cunning plan? Get me to think
you've switched sides so I'll take you back to my hideout? Tell me,
is it that you're an idiot or that you take me for one?"
Spike grabbed Giles's hand and shoved the stake in it. "I'm serious!"
Giles stopped laughing. "So am I."
Spike let go, and backed up a few paces. "I need your help, Giles. We have
to get --" He stopped, and scanned the ceiling for cameras. God knew what
kind of surveillance they were under. "I can't explain here, but I'll
tell you everything. I promise."
Again, Giles laughed. "You want my help? What on Earth makes you
think I could possibly be convinced to help you?"
"You'll want to help once you know what I'm after." He spread
his arms out in a gesture of supplication. "Look. I just cut you loose,
and I'm offering myself up as a willing hostage. What else will it take
to convince you I'm on the level?"
"Nothing, Spike." Giles regarded Spike with hard, cold eyes. "I
don't trust you. There is nothing you can do or say that will change that."
Spike nodded. "Beginning to get that."
Giles held his gaze a bit longer, then looked at the stake in his hand. "What
makes you think I won't simply slay you and be done with it?"
Spike allowed himself a rueful smile. "'Cause you're Giles. You're
honorable. And what's more, you're curious as hell." He could
almost see the cogs turning in the Watcher's brain. Spike suspected those
two things were fundamental truths about this man, no matter which dimension
he was in.
Finally, Giles nodded. "All right. I do have questions for you, and I'd
rather not ask them here."
"Let's go, then." Spike started for the stairs.
"Hold up." Giles paused at the bottom. "It's daylight. How
am I supposed to take you prisoner if you can't go outside?"
Oh, right. Spike sighed, and scanned the utility shelves at the bottom of the
stairs. He spotted a couple of folded up blankets, and tucked one under his
arm. "Sunlight's never been much of a deterrent for me," he explained,
gesturing for Giles to follow him up the stairs. "'Sides, we can take
my car." At the top of the stairs, he paused. "Stay quiet, right?
Don't want to wake the Missus." He pushed the door open and made sure
the coast was clear, then made his way through the dining room to the front
door. He stopped, and patted his pockets. "Keys," he muttered. "Where
the sodding hell do I keep my keys?"
"Is that them?" Giles whispered, pointing to a set lying on an end
table in the living room.
Spike retrieved them and handed them to Giles. "Right, then. Go open the
car door and stand out of the way. I'll have to run for it."
"I don't think so," said Giles. "You'll ride in the
trunk, or we don't do this at all."
Spike rolled his eyes. "Fine. The trunk it is. But if certain things remain
universal, you'll have to clean it out before I'll fit in there."
"Fine." Giles opened the door and went to the car. The porch provided
enough shade for Spike to step outside. He unfolded the blanket and watched
as Giles opened the trunk. Whatever was in there seemed to give him pause. Then
he reached in and pulled out a couple of battle axes, a shotgun, and a mean
looking crossbow. Not too surprising, really. Being a Master meant you had to
be ready to dole out the occasional execution. And Spike had a feeling the demon
population wasn't any more fond of him in this Sunnydale than in his own.
Giles looked at him pointedly from behind the armload of weapons before piling
them in the back seat. Then he shut the door and looked at Spike. "Right,
then! In you go!"
Spike arranged the blanket over his head with a weary sigh. "Once more
unto the boot," he muttered, and took off at a run.